sometimes you really just have to push forward
ignore people if you have to
it’s part of life
you can’t please everyone
can’t save em all
can’t give to all

might as well focus on people who matter to you

okay, going to work

i know this is bad to an extent
and i know other people deal with things differently from me
but these days when i see someone falling apart
i don’t worry at all about them
i see all problems as temporary, mine or theirs
it’ll all go away eventually
why worry, then?

what a useless way to spend time 

understanding slowly again what sacrifice means and what it takes to give
just have to stay focused, not get off track
man, i’ve grown a lot
i’m not a baby anymore 

I seriously feel like Leonard from the movie Memento.  I forget what it is I should be doing every five minutes.  I’m such an easily distractible child…  Focus on the given task, focus!

I constantly have to ask myself, “why are you doing what you’re doing?”
Otherwise, I find myself drowning in apathy and carelessness. 

what is it that i want?
and how will i obtain it?
baby steps. 

feelgood

i miss you but i can’t tell you that.  i don’t like giving myself away.

it takes courage to wield power and not abuse it.
i think i would abuse power if i had more of it. 

the thing is…

i see your flaws
i see through your insecurities
i see everything good and bad about you
i can read you like a book
i hope you can deal with that